Off to a good start this week!

Yesterday was a good day. We woke up and went to church (we had not been in like a month.. wwaayy past time to get back in our groove ;)

Our band sings this song and I have always loved it but for some reason yesterday it just hit me in a totally different way. I guess because everything that has been going on with dad. I have been struggling with having faith through all of this and the song just reminded me that our God is bigger than this cancer and he is total control of the situation!

Check this out.. so awesome.


Now go and enjoy your Monday! And just know if "Our God is for us then who could ever stop us?"

Awesomeness!

Happy Monday everyone

We have been up too..

Birthday fun!!

It has been a crazy but wonderful week. This past wed. was my bday!! The big 2-6 baby ;)

The celebration started with a family dinner on Tue night. Since my sis and I are only 5 days apart (and 11 years) we decided to celebrate together this year. 

Birthday Girls!

We had a yummy dinner and a wonderful visit with family. The next day I was treated to a full day at the salon/spa. It was heaven on Earth. I wish I had a pic of my hair after she fixed it.. but no dice. Sorry!

Then Saturday afternoon was my besties baby shower!! It was so much fun. I can NOT wait for baby Claire to get here.

The lady did a wonderful job on the cake for me. We all loved it.. BONUS: It looked as great as it tasted :)

Watermelon baby carriage

The mommy to be opening up all her fun girly gifts!

After a wonderful time at the shower I headed out to my moms to help her with a bday party for my sis. She had 30 fifteen years olds hanging around for 5 hours! She needed as many sets of eyes as she could get on the situation. Everything went great though!

My little bro, E, and my little sis (the bday girl)

My girl was LOVING the party! She was high fiving all of the boys and...

getting right in the middle of their football games ;) They were all wonderful sports with her though!

I think Maggie (Laurens friend) had to be her fav. though. She would go running to Maggie and want to play.. as well as copy everything she did LOL It was soo cute :)

cool shot from the party I thought!

What have you been up to this weekend? Sorry I have been such a slack bloggy friend. Hopefully I will get back in gear the first of the week. I have missed you all.

Now.. I am off to go swimming down at my dads for a bit :)

Happy Sunday Everyone!!!

Camping Days!

Now that we are home, unpacked, rested up, and debugged ;) I thought it was time to share with you about our trip!

We headed out Sunday morning.. luckily only about an hour and half drive..to our camping destination. I was really dreading it to be honest. Excited to be with my dad and doing something fun but not even the least bit thrilled to be camping.. BUT when we got to the campground and my uncle showed us the tent we would be using (we dont not have one.. and I was not rushing out to buy one for 1 night adventure) I decided this might not be so bad after all!

This tent even had little hanging racks in the "closets". We had enough room for E's pack and play, two air mattresses and still had plenty of room to go!

Last time I camped (wwwaayy back when) you could not even stand up in the tent! Much less have little closets :)

Dad jumped right in! He pulled out his fav. "toy" his remote control boat and had a great time. 

This is the creek that was right beside our campsite.. gorgeous and so peaceful to listen to.

Emma loved the water as well.. her fav. part was throwing rocks. (she was trying to skip the rocks like her daddy ;)

That random piece of hair in my face adds a nice touch huh!?

Daddy and Emma looking for sticks for the fire

Roasted lots of Marshmallows for our smores (SO yummy!)

but all E could do was sit back and watch.. she was exhausted from all the exploring she did!

So over all we had a much better expierance camping than I thought we would. Hey, who knows, I may even want to go back before it gets to cold ;)

Safe!

Finally... Home Sweet Home!! 24 hours in the wilderness is not for me. I will update you on our "primative" camping trip in the next day or so ( have not had a minute to get any of my pics uploaded..and lets be honest.. that is what makes a fun post ;)

Anywhoodles.. as some of you know I did a "photoshoot" for one of my friends the other day. She is the cutest mommy-to-be ever. If I looked like that...

I would stay pregnant!

Are they not soo adorable?!

Probably my fav. shot of the day! Love that you can see the reflection.. wish the water was a bit more still so it would be a little more clear but ya can't control everything ;)

So sweet!

Very soon baby Caden will make his appearance and we can not wait! So excited!!

Congrats you two!!

Did I mention...

That we were going camping this weekend?! No? Probably because I am not much of a camping type girl AT ALL.. so I am not really excited about it!

My dad said last week when he made his decision to come home that he wanted to go camping one night. So I decided hey what better time than now. After all he could tell me to go and get him a piece of the moon right now and I would do it.. so if camping is what he wants then camping is what he gets. I, however was thinking my aunt has a camper in a campground already set up so we could just go and stay there. Ummm nope! Dad said that was cheating.. LOL! So you guessed it.. tent camping here we come. We will be heading out tomorrow morning and will be back sometime monday evening. It is only one night so I guess I will put on my big girl panties ( as Mama M says) and get over it!  Camping trip 2010 here we come!!

Hope everyone has a great weekend! I will talk to you all on Monday :)




PS Did I mention that I just heard on the news... yesterday... about the couple who were attacked by bears while sleeping in their tent... ahhhhhh! OK I am ready now ;)

Ice Cream Fun...

We are going to switch gears around here today and share some smiles!

With E being sick this past week she has def. eaten her fair share of ice cream. It was about the only thing I could get her to eat for the first few days. So in the evening we would sit outside and get a breath of fresh air and enjoy some ice cream...

It was

all fun

and games

until....

she decided to share!

Scooby got all excited about a little taste of ice cream and quickly took over (not that I would have let her continue eating it after the dog anyways... )

He pretty much at the whole cone at once...

Brain freeze!! LOL

Hope everyone has a great day!! :)

Heartbroken

**warning** Whiney, complaining, upset post ahead..consider yourself warned!

As you may have read in my earlier post my dad had an important doctors appointment today (if you are new here.. my dad is battling liver cancer and has been since right before christmas of '09)

Dad had been losing alot of weight on his chemo regimen he was on. In fact he was down to 113 lbs. He had blisters and sores all over his precious little hands and feet. He was sick most of the morning time. He was just miserable.

He went to the doctor today and they told him there was nothing else they could do right now. They said his "counts?" should be going down and instead they are still rising. So basically the treatments are making him sick as a dog but yet not even touching the cancer. The doc said he refuses to run him in the ground with chemo if it is not working.

Dad is heartbroken. I am heartbroken. We all are just devestated.

Somewhere in the back of my mind I knew this may be coming and it was hard. Once his shaky little voice called and told me those words I lost it (luckily not on the phone with him though). He still has so much fight in him and such a will to live is what makes it so hard. He is not ready to give up, he is not ready to leave his family so why!?!? Why does it have to be like this.. I just dont undestand!

I know God is in control. I know God has a better plan. I know that his will is best. BUT what about me? What about what I want? What if I just want my daddy to be better here on earth. What if I just want him to watch Emma grow up and achieve all that life has to offer her. What if I want him here to hug me.

I dont even know where I am going with this post... so I am going to stop.. I just needed to get it out.. all of that to say.. I am just..

Heartbroken